Waiting

Well, it's April 29th, and our house has not sold yet.

Did I mention that my realtor said we should try to get a contract by the end of April in order to sell before we want to leave?

Yeah, so that's tomorrow.  Tomorrow is the last day of April, and I'm starting to get nervous.  I have to say, I really haven't had any problems trusting God so far.  It's been incredibly easy.  So easy that I've wondered if I've just been in denial about the upheavals in our lives...

Or maybe I just don't get nervous until it comes down to the wire.  Like now.  We've said all along that it would take a miracle to sell our house within the time frame we were setting.  And we're still waiting on that miracle. 

All that to say, waiting is so hard.  I thought moving was hard...I thought being without my husband for weeks at a time was hard...I thought selling everything and leaving my family and friends was hard...but right now this seems so much harder.  The questions keep coming...what if our house doesn't sell?  What about leaving?  What about the baby?  What about our team?  What about _____???? 

What if God doesn't come through?

Because that's the question I'm really asking.  What if God doesn't come through...

When my dad was dying I prayed daily for him to be healed.  I prayed daily for God to come through. 

And I waited...
and prayed...
and waited...
and prayed...

and he died.

And I wondered where God was...why hadn't He come through?  Why hadn't He answered?  Looking back I can see that He was there...He did answer, and His answer was hard to swallow.  Yet without that experience this would be a much tougher situation to handle.  Because now I know that God's purpose is always good, no matter how it appears.  My dad taught me that.  He knew then, while facing death, what I know now, that God is firmly in control of my circumstances.  I'm glad for those answers that were so hard at the time because they make it so much easier to trust now.

But that doesn't mean I'm not still praying for that miracle :)
(Please pray with us for the sale of our house!!)

Love ya, Dad :)